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New Years Resolutions

I really love New Years Resolutions. I make one every year and it took me a really long time to learn how to make the right resolutions. When you make resolutions you can’t keep to- like some of my previous resolutions of losing weight, doing yoga twice a week, and watching 300 movies in a year- you always feel bad about yourself in the end. Resolutions shouldn’t be too specific or unattainable. Most of all they shouldn’t harp on something negative about yourself! I think most people look at the new year as a time when they finally get to change something that they hate about themselves. Shouldn’t we focus on the positive and create loose goals which will make us feel good about ourselves. Aren’t there awesome things about your life that you want to resolute to focus more on? I’m getting a little lame and preachy- and I always take everything I say with little seriousness- but my point is can’t we just all be a little more positive!

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Comtemplations while reading for History and Systems of Psychology

I was really dreading the first day of classes this semester. Which is terrifying, because I’ve never felt that way about school before. I usually love school and can’t wait to go back to lectures, researching and debate theory. But for some reason the magic was lost after last semester.

Seriously, the first semester of grad school has been the most challenging four months I’ve ever had. It’s something I don’t really want to do again. I wasn’t excited to do any of the reading, I couldn’t focus in lectures, it really made me question my mission to stay in school for the rest of my life. It really made me question whether or not psychology was something I was really interested in. Maybe I wasn’t cut out for this, maybe learning isn’t a passion I actually have. 5 years and thousands of dollars down the drain.

But reading the first material post for History and Systems is making me feel a bit more confident. I guess I didn’t realize that is just a pure theory course, debating the five fundamental questions in psychology. And fuck that is awesome! I was going to drop this one because I thought it was all going to be clinical bullshit but it actually sounds interesting and I’m excited to hear my professor speak. So anyways I relieved to have maybe a change of heart for at least this first day. I’ll get back to you within a week to see if I’ve been hammered down into a crying fit yet by my work load and intellectual inferiority.

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failing grad school like a champ

Thinking about grocery shopping while hungry is the worst

Since I love to cook, going grocery shopping is really exciting for me. One of my favorite things since moving to Astoria is that I can buy everything I need at speciality shops instead of getting it all at once at a big grocery store. However this does mean that buying groceries becomes a three hour affair from walking to the bakery, organic vegetable market, and butcher.

My goal for this trip is to not buy anything with preservatives. I’ve been trying to cut food additives from my diet for a while now, but I’ve never been too mindful of what I was actually buying.

Also I have a couple dishes I want to make this week, particularly a tomato and herb lentil dish (which will go great with the massive amounts of goat cheese sitting in my fridge), and zucchini fritters, so I’ll need to stock up on ingredients for that.

all i care about is food

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